Ebbs, Flows and LOVE
The ebbs and flows of life are an interesting one.
We come into this world as innocent beings, totally helpless and end our lives in this world the same way.
I have experienced much in my life from a near death experience to having the privilege of watching my children grow and falling in love once again with my husband of 30 years. Yet there is so much more!
I love to serve. I have been a caregiver to my husband, mom until her passing, dad and aunty Winnie, until her passing. The best part is making each one of their lives easier for them. Advocating to ensure they have what they needed when they needed it. Ensuring that all of their needs were taken care of. To allow them to live peacefully while on this earth. To just love them where they were/are at.
It is when death is at our doorstep and the veil becomes thin, that we truly see and experience what it’s like to connect to the spirit world. There is peace there. Our worries are gone, we have no physical pain. We are released into a realm that is completely different from our physical form. Where things become clearer and we begin to understand ourselves and the people that were in our physical lives. Where truth lives.
February is the month of love. I loved my dear aunty so much and I am so sad she is no longer in my life. She made is safe for me to love her, talk with her and share the most intimate details of my life, without judgement. My heart is sad for so many reasons, one of them is that I no longer have a matriarch in my life. They are all gone!
So now it’s up to me. I have chosen a path that will heal generations of my family. At times I am overwhelmed, excited and awe struck. It is also time to stop and ponder, take care of my needs. Check into my heart and honour what it needs right now. To slow down and let others do what is needed in this next phase of moving forward. To have the confidence to articulate and honour what I need most. I need time to reflect, heal, and remember all the wonderful things this has brought me.
It has been an honour and a privilege to have learned so much by just serving others. My heart opened and grew with each opportunity of service. It gave me purpose and peace of mind that they were comfortable and felt secure with me at their side.
“Grief was a reminder that love was present, and that even if it’s no longer in its original form, that love still exists.”
